Anxiety

I can feel it rising...and there isn't anything I can do right now to stop it. It would help if one of our "Roommates" would take care of his responsibilities and pay his share of rent, do his dirty dishes, help to try and keep the power bill down and /or help pay it. It's not fair for Justin and I to be paying for EVERYTHING. We have our own bills. This person hasn't had a job for 4 months now. Isn't looking for one either, and just doesn't care. We've had to start asking for help with food, because without that help, we wouldn't have food to eat. Next month is going to be worse, Justin's unemployment got cut and that is not helping us at all right now. I'm wondering if it's going to come down to us having to pack up and move....Again....Not what I want. I just want this one person to pay the money they owe, including the 105 dollars in late fees that hac accrued, because of this person, and I want them to leave, be gone and out of mine, my Husband's and my sister's lives forever! All this person has done is cause Drama, with a capital D, hurt and stress! Nothing good has come from this person living with us. We have cut our spending, we haven't gone out to eat or out in general in I don't know how long, we don't drive if we don't have to, we're getting rid of HBO and Showtime, since we have movies we can watch...I guess... all of our money goes to paying bills. Not to mention, Justin has court coming up about his DUI on Tuesday. I'm hoping they drop the charges and give us our $700 dollars back! It's BS that the Justice System will let things like that happen! If they don't drop the charges we are going to fight it and end up having to pay $2000 for a lawyer... I have to tell myself, somehow I guess it could be worse, but right now, I don't know how. I am praying and crossing my fingers that Justin gets called back to work Elevators very very soon. That would be the only thing that could save us right now.. I cry nearly everyday lately because of this crap in our lives. We're 21 and 23, why are we being subjected to this?? Why is a 32 year old man living off his Niece and her Husband??! I know one day he will get it coming back to him, but that day can't come soon enough! I also would like to just say how much I love my Husband. He rubbed my back last night until I had calmed down enough to fall alseep. He is my Love, My Husband, My Best Friend, My Everything! I don't know what I would do without him.